Dienstag, Februar 17, 2009

a bit bumpy, but not too bad

the title is the description of my re-integration process back home :-)

I do feel a little home sick for new york. I only realised now how much I love new york. that is not a big surprise. I am generally rather slow on the emotions side, on realising who would make a great friend, or even realising that the guy(s) I spend time with are growing on me. I hardly ever get what I mean to others, unless they tell me straight forward - which happens at times, but not often enough :-)

that is why it is so good to have farewells... it makes you think about it, and say it, and it goes a two way road. it ends up, in my case, with feeling somewhat homesick at home. the curse and blessing of being home in several places!

I'm NOT complaining. I'm still doing fine. I am a little nervous though, I've been to the gynecologist before leaving NYC for routine check, and some tests were showing abnormal results, so I have to go again now to find out if it was just a emotional "Ausrutscher" (lol), or some minor infection to be treated, or even something potentially serious. Knowing myself, I did NOT google anything, NOT trying to find out what it could be, and buried myself in blissful ignorance.

so, integration at home is going fine enough, a little bumpy, but the real bumps I guess lie ahead. I'm gonna take them one at a time, with a little help from my friends.


Peter (Worldman): hat gesagt…

And don't worry. You will get homesick again: For the big wide world. Its taste. As they said in the Peter Stuyvesant's adds in the 1960.

Hafez hat gesagt…

Yes, thats what I think. Up to the Basler Fasnacht and then....